A couple of weeks ago I was finally going to bed after a very long day and was so ready to just fall asleep..... Hey I am a mother of 3 young children I deserve some sleep to, right?! As I laid their I felt an overwhelming weight on my chest, as if someone was actually standing on me.. I have heard the expression "God came and sat on my bed post to talk to me" and while that has never happened to me personally I do believe He was speaking to me....... I tossed and turned a few times and realized you can't ignore God when He decides to deal with you!!
Let me set the stage for you... I had been praying for quite sometime for the Lord to help me and give me strength to raise my children in a way that would be pleasing to Him. We had several outstanding services at church where the Spirit really came in strong and you could feel how the Spirit was ministering to everyone and meeting everyones needs. During these services I begged and pleaded with the Lord to help me be a better mom, kind of like when Jacob wrestled with the angel all night, which kept coming to my mind as I was praying.
Now I will fast forward to that night a few weeks ago. When I figured out I was not going to sleep I got up and went into my girl's room and started praying, I was not sure what I was to be praying for but I knew it was something. All of the sudden I felt such shame as if I was being scolded by the Lord, which I was. My children came to my mind and the lack of consistency I had been showing them in daily things, such as: chores, discipline, napping, playing, doing "school" work, my mood even... And the more I prayed and thanked the Lord for showing me a main key in raising children I could feel the heavy weight lift off my chest. The Lord was showing me a part of myself that I prefer to ignore! I also felt the Lord give this thought to me and I felt Him speaking straight to my heart. "Until your children come to know ME (Jesus) for themselves YOU are the only Jesus they will see."
I just wanted to share that with everyone because I felt it so uplifting that God cares for us and loves us so much that He will help us when we ask Him to. Sometimes God has to use a pillow or hit us on head with a 2x4 to get our attention!! And even though He had to hit me that night I am so thankful He hears my prayer!!!
God is good